classpectlab:

Originally written by @scalematey, for ClasspectLab’s Task 1.0. 2016.

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It takes so much god damn effort.

It takes so much god damn effort to be self-aware, to be confrontational, to actively work to resolve your problems and improve yourself. It takes so much effort to be aware of everything and everyone’s problems, because they’re your friends’ problems, and therefore by extension, your problems too. You can remind yourself a million times that it’s not your responsibility, but you’re still going to try and you’re still going to care.

Because the mark of a Witch of Space is not the ability to walk through fire and ice unscathed, it’s the purpose with which each heel clacks on the stone floor. It’s not the creative output of a thousand stupid ideas, it’s why you even choose to say them in the first place. It’s because you think it’s important, that it means something — because you think it should mean something, and every cry out into the endless void is your endless frustration at the fact that it might not.

To say that a Witch of Space cares about a lot of things would not be inaccurate, but it would be shallow. To some degree, you just have to care about everything. You have to make the choice to care about everything, because dropping any of these fucks that you’re juggling is a disaster for everyone involved. I’ll tell you the truth: every single mistake you’ve ever made is a result of your own stupidity. And you’ve got to learn to be accountable for that.

Because you see, when you stop giving a fuck, that’s when you know you’ve lost it.

No matter what universe or time or place you’re in, you’re going to be the one with the guts to get shit done when it matters. Or when you think it matters. And for the record, those two will always need to be the same thing. If you don’t feel the need to step in, you won’t. And if you can’t find a single fuck in your body to give when others need it most, you have a problem. And all problems need a solution.

But who is there to solve them? Who wants to solve them? Who’s going to take the first step? You can only be responsible for what you can do. Should do. Will do.

It’s not easy to care. It’s not easy to act. And it’s not easy to stay human, or even alive while doing all of it.

But if you can pull it all off, something magical might just happen.

@geekness101

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